Personal:No One Said It Was Going To Be This Hard

My dreams of what being an artist was like are far from what my life actually looks like. No one ever said this was an artist’s reality. No one talks about the real struggle, the student loan debt, being on the brink of total exhaustion, or how much extra work is involved.


Those movies, the biographies, the artist interviews, and the sugar-coated art books I’ve read… they only tell a small part of what it’s like to be a contemporary creative. The successful artists of the past either lucked out completely or put the story of their struggle out of their minds in order to keep the illusion of the perfect artist’s life alive. Either way, that’s not me and that’s not my current situation.

I’m not covered in paint 24 hours a day, waxing poetically over canvas and paper. I’m not constantly switching from pots of coffee to bottles of whiskey. I don’t spend my evenings in bars or in fellow artists’ studios getting drunk and talking art world politics. I don’t see any movements forming to jump into or out of. I don’t live in NY. I don’t live in L.A. I have not been “discovered”; nor am I about to be.

The things I say aren’t always the smartest. I’m not romantic in my speech nor am I perfectly quotable. Half the time I’m too tired to carry on an intellectual conversation. I see my very talented and beloved art buddies at openings. We’re all too busy working feverously for the next exhibition to be real sociable human beings. Our schedules are all mix-matched anyway. Some work 9-5 while others maintain nightshifts in bars and restaurants. We’re all exhausted and usually thankful to see one another the few times we can; typically on First Fridays.

My story is not flashy, fancy, or worthy of a movie plot. All of the artists I am close with are the same, even if they fail to admit it.

I (try to) get up at 7:30 am every morning. I put on “respectable” clothing, make myself a cup of coffee for the road and am in an office by 9. I put 8 hours into a job that others see as a career. I work hard and am good at what I do but I’m not passionate about it. I can’t see past that, so the hours waste away while I think of all the making and creating I could be doing instead. It’s depressing. I get home around 6:00 pm, eat dinner and spend about an hour with my husband. If I’m lucky: from there I get into the studio for 1-4 hours. It’s never enough. I’m always left unsatisfied.

I’m responsible. I pay my bills and student loans (mostly) on time. I try to save for my retirement because my only hope right now to be a full time artist is when I turn 60ish. No matter how “in the clear” I think I am, my bank account still occasionally goes in the negative -especially when it comes time to ship paintings for new shows.

I work a full-time job to be able to sustain my tumultuous career and passion. The best and worst part about that is I know I will never give up.

I haven’t slacked off in years. I already have 6 shows under my belt for 2014 and 4 (possibly 5) coming up. I use my breaks from work to draw in my sketchbook or write in this blog. Not a moment of my life is wasted.



This is not glamorous. This is exhausting.

Why we, as artists, keep this all out of the public is beyond me. I don’t want to lie about how hard I work. I don’t want to lie about how much student loan debt I have. I don’t want to project that this life is a perfect one. Choosing to be an artist is not a dream nor is it a joke.

So I’m taking a vow (to myself). In a world where social media sculpts our lives into looking perfect to those we are too distant from to know the difference… I’m going to be honest. I am preparing myself to be painfully honest.

Keeping up with illusions of “supposed to be” is tiresome, and I’m already exhausted.

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  • Jon Grim said:

    Very well put. I'm glad you wrote this and were as honest as you were because this shits hard and your post is a great eye opener for those who haven't realized it. Love your art, glad you'll never give up :)

  • Julianne said:

    I just want to say that I admire you, not just for your ability to paint the world in the beautiful way that you see it, but for your honesty, your drive, and quite frankly, your balls. Your passion for art and commitment to follow it is very inspirational. I know that when you're 60, you will be working in your beautiful studio, hopefully with cats nearby, and with a lifetime of stories to share. <3

  • Elizabeth Levesque said:

    I know you don't know me, but I just want you to know that I relate. It's a very hard journey with no guarantee of pay off, and really, what exactly is the end goal anyway?

    • mariateicher said:

      It's always so lovely to hear other artists that relate. Thank you for sharing that. - Checked out your work too. Absolutely lovely!

  • Eugenia D'Ambrosio said:


    I can relate to all that you have and are experiencing with and for your art.

    Now that said, you are producing and your work is getting out and being seen. That is the plus for all of your hard work. Keep on going. Keep making connections. Those are the baby steps that we all need to take in order to grow and bring in the bigger work.

    Best to you.

  • josh talbott said:

    It is exhausting.
    I am a full time artist and work between 10 and 16 hours a day ....everyday. And thats the way it is. It is one of those things where it must be it's own reward. Like being kind. If it become solely about selling or the return we have missed the point. It is process. Like everything else. I think it is worth the work on personal boundaries and self awareness to develop a healthy process. "In this world there is a barrier to perfection," I heard someone say once. The context made it funny and therefore memorable. It is always( and I use that word carefully) a matter of reassessing and reapplying. I wish you the best. I know how difficult it can be.

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  • Maria, I'm now over 65, and live on an island in Greece. I've been painting all my life and have stayed true to my art being a realist. It never gets easier and I paint what I love for the joy of creating. Be thankful you have some shows as there are many deserving artists with no hope of shows or sales. That includes me, but I never give up, one day maybe things will be different but the economy, world situations and the enormous amount of artists creating don't inspire hope. Still painting is the closest I come to the experiencing the divine and I couldn't stop even if I wanted to!